More work

[gryphonsegg]

I started filling out my applications today, and I got in touch with two of the three people I'll need recommendation letters from. There are so many fees to pay just to get all my records submitted to the places I'm applying, ARGH! I get so anxious taking even the tiniest steps, and I feel bad about not trying again to get my thesis work published in a journal, but I also remember that it got rejected twice and dread another rejection. I know getting it published would make my applications stronger, but at the same time, I worry that I can't make it good enough to publish!

Of course, something that happened at my job today made me really, really want to get out of here and move forward with my real career next year. Being a doctoral student has its own disadvantages, no doubt, but they're much less likely to include contact with a guy who is becoming increasingly distressed and irate because he can't find something but refuses to stop darting aimlessly about the library or exclaiming "I can't find my thing!" long enough to tell anyone what the thing is, what it looks like, or where he last saw it. At least, I sincerely hope there will not be exchanges like this:

"I can't find my thing!"

"What are you looking for?"

"I can't find my thing!" :(

"What is this thing?"

"I can't find my thing!" D:

"Where did you see it last?"

"I can't find my thing!" DX

"If you would just tell me what-"

"I don't have time for that! I CAN'T find my THING!" DX