I'm not the only one!

[gryphonsegg]

I've spent years and years dealing with this seemingly weird situation where the people around me read me as a woman (and sometimes as hyperfeminine!), but I hate it and never feel like a woman, but there's nothing I can do about it, and I like the idea of being non-binary/genderqueer/genderless in theory but wandering into those waters on the internet makes it clear that I don't look like the right kind of non-binary/genderqueer/genderless person for reasons that have nothing to do with my chosen "presentation" and everything to do with the way my body naturally is. I don't want to get too TMI about my body dysphoria and how it is (contrary to expectation) not all about losing weight and how even if I could lose enough weight to be considered "healthy" by random onlookers I couldn't possibly lose enough to be considered androgynous and still remain genuinely healthy because my body just doesn't roll that way. Suffice to say, I try not to look at or think about my appearance except in terms of judging whether my clothes are appropriate for whatever I'm about to do. The reason I'm posting about my body issues yet again is that I just found out there's at least one other person who has pretty much the same kinds of body issues. this post from Meloukhia got linked at Womanist Musings, and hours after reading it, part of me is still reeling from the discovery that there's another one like me out there.