Oh, yeah, this exists

I really need to get back into posting regularly. The past couple of weeks have been extremely hectic, but I find that I really do feel better when I make time to communicate with people beyond my immediate environment. I know the stereotypical thing is "You spend too much time on the internet and need to interact face to face more often," but for me . . . well, it's not the opposite of that. It's just that some things are easier to discuss when we NOT face to face. I'm not sure how much of that is my own awkwardness and how much of it is the fact that it's much easier to identify people online as the kind of people who might be interested having a conversation about the things I need to talk about. I know a lot of people in the department well enough to strike up a conversation about the things we study, but the thing I really want to talk about right now is so far down the fandom rabbit hole I wouldn't dare mention it to any of them because it's kind of inappropriate for work and it would make me look crazy. I mean, I can't go up to someone I work with and say, "I'm in this fandom where I didn't really ship anything at first, but the haters of this one pairing are getting so ridiculous and so self-righteous that I'm developing a huge defensive complex about that pairing. But at the same time I'm afraid that I'll have to give up the fandom entirely because their preferred alternative ship brings up so many of my old issues that I thought I'd dealt with, but if I tell people I dislike that pairing, they'll pigeonhole me "hating feminine women" because that's the new thing to do on Tumblr." They would think I was high.