I really wish I didn't have to post about this

This is a difficult post for me to write because it digs up a lot of old pain. Let me start by saying that this all got started by yet another round of asexual vs. anti-asexual shenanigans at Feministe (yes, I know, my fault for looking!).

( Cut for spiritual abuse, extreme misogyny, homophobia, implicit marital rape )

Obviously, I have done all that I could to get out and leave all that behind. It still hurts to this day, which is why it took me a long, long time to compose this post. My mother was angry about the situation years ago, but it doesn't seem to have wrecked her mentally like it wrecked me, probably because she was already an adult by the time the rightward slide started. Or maybe she's just a much tougher person than I am. I am notorious for being an oversensitive crybaby, after all. I don't talk about it with her anymore because it makes her feel bad to hear how deeply wounded I still am by those experiences. So, yeah. Not all asexual teenagers are told they are going to hell for being asexual. But I was.